Friendship

It's been in my chest for days and I am not sure whether to publish this or not.

To be frank, I've been quiet overwhelmed lately by all the thoughts lolllol

In case you're wondering how can someone who stays at home everyday be overwhelmed, they have nothing to worry about, they have nothing to do. BUT I'm now in a condition where I'm going somewhere I am absolutely unfamiliar with (to study) and leaving everything behind me for so long.

Speaking about this, I think people is a really really weird creature, you know when you CAN'T do it, but you still wanna do it. You know when you SHOULDN'T wait for someone, you still wanna wait. You know clearly that you SHOULDN'T love someone, you still wanna fall for him/her. Contradicting ourselves. In this case, I am scared but I still wanna go. And of course, I am not describing EVERY person on earth, I'm just saying some of us.

Continue from the main topic. I'm going somewhere not so far (2 hours drive from KL), but far enough to break friendships, which is the most horrifying fact of all. I know I can meet new people and be friends with them, and now we're living in the 20th century, where phones are our essentials to connect people, but it's different, so different. Maybe you'll be wondering me staying at home, without going out with my friends it's the same when I am studying in somewhere far, without going out with my friends. I think it's the psychological effects that affects me, I cannot bear that our friendship bond will be weaken or even worse, break. In the end, I'll still be far away.

I am truly, deeply grateful that I've meet not many, but enough, amazing and wonderful friends. I'm actually talking about 6 friends only HAHHAHAH But they're my everything. I've seen their flaws, BIG FLAWS, HUGE FLAWSS, that I don't even know I can be capable with, but I did. :)

I just don't want people...to leave, no matter what.